Once the public is aware of those among us who live in trauma based multiplicity, the question of a solution will become the topic of discussions. What we all need to understand is that survivors of the Nazi cult that infected my family are programmed to do and be against humanity. The immediate response is to save survivors from the hell they have been living. The complication becomes, how do we save them from themselves?
The woman during the first training I received was asked, “Who would do that?!” Who would commit these atrocities against children?!
Her response was, “We did. It was conditioned.” These survivors were raised in the cult. They participated in horrific rituals as children, because they had no choice. They participated in horrific rituals as adults, because it was all that they knew, and as far as they knew, their survival depended on participation. The cult, also happened to be their family.
Well, that was what one of the women said anyway. The other was obviously extremely traumatized by this revelation and had to leave the room. The discussion turned to how painful it is to know this. Those parts, or alters, subjected to the most horrific experiences are deeper in the system and the memories of these alters come later. Memories of participation come much later. What we need to understand in our efforts to help those who have been raised in hell, is that in order to free them, they need to face the demons they themselves carry with them. Survivors are not just victims of extreme trauma. They are perpetrators of extreme trauma. They will need to know this about themselves, and then forgive themselves. Could you?
How to create a killer: They start with an innocent child and torture the child until the child complies. Svali tells us about children being electrocuted until they obey and wring the neck of a puppy. Some survivors speak of having robot alters. By the time a child is ready to do as they are told and commit the atrocities they are instructed to commit there is sometimes not much left of the resulting personality in the way of emotion. They are like robots. They may have refused and been tortured into unconsciousness, and now believe that parts of themselves capable of compassion and defiant against evil are dead. If they are still alive, those parts of themselves are still there as well. The beautiful compassionate warriors who fought to defy evil even in the small defenseless bodies of children, are still there. These little warriors will be grief stricken beyond comprehension to realize that the puppy was indeed strangled to death, and it was their little hands that did the strangling. The pain is huge beyond measure. The guilt and shame, the horror, is greater than the torture they endured.
As a singleton, as some survivors call those who are not multiple, we may say we would never commit a human atrocity. Survivors would say the same thing. As a whole, they are not the type of person who would commit the atrocities they committed. In my book I mentioned the book/movie Sophia’s Choice. It was a common Nazi practice to pose non-choices in the guise of choices to their victims. A choice to kill this child, or that one, is not a choice. Survivors had no choice. They will need a great compassion for themselves in order to forgive themselves. They will need a support system of others capable of compassion as well. Can we forgive them?
Those parts who some survivors call their “Dark Ones” did for them what needed to be done to survive. The dark ones provide a strength necessary in dire situations that no one should have to be exposed to. The capabilities of dark ones, can be utilized in positive ways. They are capable of doing the difficult. They can be given difficult tasks that will bring them, their soul mates, and the rest of us, into a better, kinder, safer world. Dark ones have been lied to. Once they understand this, they will change their loyalties. Dark ones may not know that they can be hurt, that they were hurt. They may be shocked to meet those parts of themselves who are deeply wounded, by those they have been loyal to.
The survivor who presented at my first training told of a time she woke to find herself half way home, or her parent’s house rather. One of her alters missed her mother. So she had called her mother, who accessed a cult loyal alter and persuaded her to return home. The survivor had to frantically renegotiate her safety. She had to go into hiding all over again.
Survivors may not be able to just leave, before they have brought all of their parts together in the commitment to stay gone. I have spoken with survivors who have not yet managed to get all of their parts on board for the move toward safety. I have heard survivors wish that someone would tie them down, lock them in a room. They want so badly to flee to safety but somehow there is some part of them that keeps getting up and taking them into the danger zone, yet again. They would sign a waiver to have themselves confined, at least some part of them.
I envision a safety zone for survivors where the full dynamic of their history is understood. Yes, survivors need to be held accountable for what they have done. They can do this within the context of a healing place where change is the objective, where integration is the objective. They need a sort of witness protection arrangement where they are safe from those who created their nightmare, and safely at a distance from the possibility that they might respond to their destructive training before they have confronted this aspect of their conditioning.
In Ritual Abuse and Mind Control: The Manipulation of Attachment Needs, Lisa, a survivor, is told by a detective inspector that there is no bargaining in this country, and no law on duress. She could face a twelve year sentence (Epstein, Schwartz, Wingfield-Schwartz, 2011). We need to look at this carefully given that the greatest tool we have for uprooting this nightmare is the information provided by survivors. If we punish them for facing demons we would have to consider careful whether we ourselves would have the courage to face, how will we ever uproot this evil? That is not to say that those who pose a threat should not be contained.
Survivors are our greatest resource in the war to end the evil they have touched so intimately. The nightmare they know well, is our nightmare too. We can join them in their craving to bring an end to evil, but we need to understand it, and show compassion. The world needs laws and resources to provide a compassionate solution.
Epstein, O. B., Schwartz J. & Wingfield-Schwartz, R. (Eds.) (2011). Ritual
Abuse and Mind Control: The Manipulation of Attachment Needs, London: Karnac Books Ltd., The Bowlby Centre.