I would like to point out, that the dates that trouble survivors are not just the Christian holidays, or even the civil holidays like Mother’s Day (It’s like She said, “Everyone has a mother.”). I have survivor friends very distraught over Beltane, that’s May 1st, a pagan holiday. These same survivors were troubled over Easter…. The curse that is responsible for troubling survivors is interfaith. To resolve the issues brought to us by these cursed ones, we will need to be too.
You should have seen her face, when I was transferred. That’s a raise. You do like poker, right She? She seriously needs to work on her poker face.
She is still milking me for my mother’s location, unless it’s just a straight up threat. She feels the need to remind us that, “Everyone has a mother,” and “Mother’s Day is a Blackout Day!!!” For her sake, and the sake of my sister-in-law, I hope to spend Mother’s Day, 2016, with my mother.
My elderly mother has outlived a few siblings, and would gladly give her life for her grandchildren. I recall my mother’s words, “I’m just in it for the kids.” A bit of background on the word “it”, is in order, but I can only speculate. My guess has become quite well educated however. My guess has become educated enough to hope that for the sake of She and my sister-in-law they have good therapists trained in the treatment of ritual abuse for those with life sentences. What a waste that would be at their young age, if all the good therapists are busy with those survivors who haven’t been driven over the edge of stupidity.
The Search Key Phrases from my Visitors Stats Page for this period provides me with the opportunity to present the following: “Snoops a bump in the road you won’t forget” and “Obama mocks the resurrection.”
Perhaps someone is pissed that I found the work of Snoops useful in pointing out that President Obama did not champion the coming New World Order. It was an urban legend created by a bit of computer doctoring. It’s worth considering the motive behind such a lie, don’t you think?
Perhaps someone is pissed that my Facebook follower’s claim that “Obama mocks the resurrection” has been met with a similar opinion to one that Snoops might take regarding such a claim, against our Christian president. It’s worth considering the motive behind such a lie, don’t you think?
I am editing this 4/23/14 post on 5/1/15 to add a trigger warning for survivors. I add it with a link to a previous post (A Compassionate Solution for the Dark Ones).
I said that She gave me enough time to wrap some knuckles. Yes, I meant rap some knuckles, and I lied. She gave me enough time to rap her knuckles, but I’ve decided to up the ante yet again. Let’s see just how many knuckles we can line up. My experience working with She for short has been priceless. I had considered being a forensic psychologist, among the many brands of psychology I couldn’t bring myself to choose from. Text book learning is nothing compared to real world experience. How many can say they have had an opportunity to work with the criminally insane, in a professional capacity. I am gaining this experience, and it’s priceless.
She asked me one day if I thought she was mean. I did not reply. It pissed her off enough that she acknowledged that what she was doing was harassment, but it could not be proven. I tried to keep my smile on the inside. I didn’t really hurt her feelings. Sociopaths don’t really care if you like them, the way normal people do, but if frustrates them if you don’t like them, because it’s so much easier to manipulate someone who doesn’t have their number. She has all the arrogance that goes with being a Narcissistic Sociopath, regardless of her lack of intellectual prowess, or education. I have had to learn that power in the hands of the ignorant can be a dangerous thing. Dark Ones should really be contained until they can find some connection to their human born side, if they have one. I believe She has one. After all, she wore her eye liner today. She hasn’t worn eyeliner in quite a while.
Those who speak of the Illuminati as if they know the inner workings, do know the inner workings, of the Nazi cult that created their nightmare. From the earliest beginnings of the Illuminati conspiracy movement, back in the day when Nesta Webster was accusing the Jews of being Illuminati leaders, and ignoring that the original Illuminati would not allow Jewish membership, Illuminati conspiracy theorists have been describing the Illuminati like it was a spy network. The founder of the Illuminati, Adam Weishupt, at the time they infiltrated the Freemasons, did organize his little secret society like a spy ring. The original members were ordered to observe and report every detail of the lives of those around them. So, are these Nazis the CIA? I say, Nope, regardless of their invitation into our country through visas handed out by our Intelligence agencies.
My niece and nephews were being trained to be spies, saboteurs, and thieves. She for short behaves just as they did. There is the innocent sounding question cloaked in the perfect context, the expectation that the reply with the information requested will be next. Then there is the moment of gloating when it worked, just because we are all so well socialized to tell people the information they ask for. She for short was sure to gloat about breaking the HIPPA laws when I told her the details of the medications I am on, and how I might plan to get them, even if I don’t have health insurance, and on and on I blabbed. We know how that turned out, don’t we? Did I tell you the story She told of being kicked out of Costco because she was caught behind the staff only doors, innocently lost of course, and not a Costco member. She was using her mother’s membership card, but mother wasn’t there. Excuse me, I digress. My point was, victims of the Nazi cult tend to be trained to extract information. They are well trained spies and such, even if they do lack the intelligence to make a good CIA agent.
She for short is in a position of power. “Does your mother live in the state?” is innocent enough, cloaked in the information gathering of a schedule maker. When my “what’s up?” rather than, “Yes,” or “No,” was my socially awkward, yet appropriate response, she just wanted to know if I had plans with my mother for Mother’s Day. She was doing the schedule and all. If I had scheduling needs I would have had more than ample opportunity to share them with her. It has been my experience that having scheduling needs becomes an opportunity for her to screw me, so it is likely better if I keep any scheduling needs to myself regardless.
If She for short worked for the CIA, I suspect she would not need to milk me for my mother’s whereabouts, the details of my medication needs, or whether my sister has children. She would already have this information. Perhaps she is just teasing me, and already has this information, but if those involved in this pathetic secret society cult have the resources of the CIA, then they already know what I have planned next. I suspect they, these CIA wanna bes, don’t have a clue who I really am. Yes, I will need more time than she gave me, but then, I’m smart enough to take the time I need. We will get to the end of this story, regardless of the length of the chap book, or Tome.
In the end, the Dark Ones will get the time they so desperately need, in order to meet the wounded children they are. There will be time and a place for them to move from criminally insane, to an exquisitely valuable part of the whole. My hope for every one of them is the wisdom and courage to use that time and space well. My psychic friend used to say, “If you are asking for wisdom, duck and cover.”
This post needs to begin with a trigger warning. This post carries with it a knowledge regarding the system of survivors which survivors themselves find the strength to deal with last if they find the strength to face it at all. If you are a survivor, I would consider carefully whether you are ready to know what is written here. Have an advocate at your side.
Once the public is aware of those among us who live in trauma based multiplicity, the question of a solution will become the topic of discussions. What we all need to understand is that survivors of the Nazi cult that infected my family are programmed to do and be against humanity. The immediate response is to save survivors from the hell they have been living. The complication becomes, how do we save them from themselves?
The woman during the first training I received was asked, “Who would do that?!” Who would commit these atrocities against children?!
Her response was, “We did. It was conditioned.” These survivors were raised in the cult. They participated in horrific rituals as children, because they had no choice. They participated in horrific rituals as adults, because it was all that they knew, and as far as they knew, their survival depended on participation. The cult, also happened to be their family.
Well, that was what one of the women said anyway. The other was obviously extremely traumatized by this revelation and had to leave the room. The discussion turned to how painful it is to know this. Those parts, or alters, subjected to the most horrific experiences are deeper in the system and the memories of these alters come later. Memories of participation come much later. What we need to understand in our efforts to help those who have been raised in hell, is that in order to free them, they need to face the demons they themselves carry with them. Survivors are not just victims of extreme trauma. They are perpetrators of extreme trauma. They will need to know this about themselves, and then forgive themselves. Could you?
How to create a killer: They start with an innocent child and torture the child until the child complies. Svali tells us about children being electrocuted until they obey and wring the neck of a puppy. Some survivors speak of having robot alters. By the time a child is ready to do as they are told and commit the atrocities they are instructed to commit there is sometimes not much left of the resulting personality in the way of emotion. They are like robots. They may have refused and been tortured into unconsciousness, and now believe that parts of themselves capable of compassion and defiant against evil are dead. If they are still alive, those parts of themselves are still there as well. The beautiful compassionate warriors who fought to defy evil even in the small defenseless bodies of children, are still there. These little warriors will be grief stricken beyond comprehension to realize that the puppy was indeed strangled to death, and it was their little hands that did the strangling. The pain is huge beyond measure. The guilt and shame, the horror, is greater than the torture they endured.
As a singleton, as some survivors call those who are not multiple, we may say we would never commit a human atrocity. Survivors would say the same thing. As a whole, they are not the type of person who would commit the atrocities they committed. In my book I mentioned the book/movie Sophia’s Choice. It was a common Nazi practice to pose non-choices in the guise of choices to their victims. A choice to kill this child, or that one, is not a choice. Survivors had no choice. They will need a great compassion for themselves in order to forgive themselves. They will need a support system of others capable of compassion as well. Can we forgive them?
Those parts who some survivors call their “Dark Ones” did for them what needed to be done to survive. The dark ones provide a strength necessary in dire situations that no one should have to be exposed to. The capabilities of dark ones, can be utilized in positive ways. They are capable of doing the difficult. They can be given difficult tasks that will bring them, their soul mates, and the rest of us, into a better, kinder, safer world. Dark ones have been lied to. Once they understand this, they will change their loyalties. Dark ones may not know that they can be hurt, that they were hurt. They may be shocked to meet those parts of themselves who are deeply wounded, by those they have been loyal to.
The survivor who presented at my first training told of a time she woke to find herself half way home, or her parent’s house rather. One of her alters missed her mother. So she had called her mother, who accessed a cult loyal alter and persuaded her to return home. The survivor had to frantically renegotiate her safety. She had to go into hiding all over again.
Survivors may not be able to just leave, before they have brought all of their parts together in the commitment to stay gone. I have spoken with survivors who have not yet managed to get all of their parts on board for the move toward safety. I have heard survivors wish that someone would tie them down, lock them in a room. They want so badly to flee to safety but somehow there is some part of them that keeps getting up and taking them into the danger zone, yet again. They would sign a waiver to have themselves confined, at least some part of them.
I envision a safety zone for survivors where the full dynamic of their history is understood. Yes, survivors need to be held accountable for what they have done. They can do this within the context of a healing place where change is the objective, where integration is the objective. They need a sort of witness protection arrangement where they are safe from those who created their nightmare, and safely at a distance from the possibility that they might respond to their destructive training before they have confronted this aspect of their conditioning.
In Ritual Abuse and Mind Control: The Manipulation of Attachment Needs, Lisa, a survivor, is told by a detective inspector that there is no bargaining in this country, and no law on duress. She could face a twelve year sentence (Epstein, Schwartz, Wingfield-Schwartz, 2011). We need to look at this carefully given that the greatest tool we have for uprooting this nightmare is the information provided by survivors. If we punish them for facing demons we would have to consider careful whether we ourselves would have the courage to face, how will we ever uproot this evil? That is not to say that those who pose a threat should not be contained.
Survivors are our greatest resource in the war to end the evil they have touched so intimately. The nightmare they know well, is our nightmare too. We can join them in their craving to bring an end to evil, but we need to understand it, and show compassion. The world needs laws and resources to provide a compassionate solution.
Epstein, O. B., Schwartz J. & Wingfield-Schwartz, R. (Eds.) (2011). Ritual
Abuse and Mind Control: The Manipulation of Attachment Needs, London: Karnac Books Ltd., The Bowlby Centre.
One day She for short asked me if I was left handed. I am not, and was not using my left hand in any way that would warrant such a question. I pointed out that I was using my right hand as the dominant hand and asked why she thought to ask the question. She just wondered, then said, “Perhaps the right hand doesn’t know what the left hand is doing.” This might be a good time to point out that in the dark side cults that worship dark side characters like Set and Satan call their practice following the left hand path. I think it is time to wrap the knuckles on the left hand. What makes them think the right hand doesn’t know what they are up to? Watch me now. I believe She has given me just enough time to do that.
I present here a few photos. One photo is the Facebook page of the domestic terrorist who followed me on Facebook and spreads dangerous propaganda against our president and government. The timing of the accusation that President Obama “Mocks the Resurrection of Jesus,” came just after Easter, when survivors would certainly have parts still raw and wounded and painfully aware that there are indeed those who “mock the resurrection of Jesus.” Given the horrific events in their life around this time, they would likely be motivated to hate and believe this dangerous propaganda. This NWO propagandist, suggesting that President Obama should be assassinated for said mocking of the resurrection, also spreads the typical absurd lies suggesting the president is a reptilian humanoid, leader of the Illuminati. He says that Muslims are Luciferian and accuses president Obama of being a Muslim Luciferian. One of his friends warns that Muslims are “draco reptilians” and warns that their children will be used by Satanists. This propagandist is demeaning toward women, saying, “WOMEN ARE DESIGNED HERE ON EARTH TO DO>........SPREAD THEM and have sex.....” This propagandist warns, in one post, against the “INCUBUS OUT THERE......male energy vampires....”
For those of you who have not read my post “Cult Slang from the Cult Gang,” this is the man who threatened our president with the same “secret” cult slang I had been threatened with. “Is the fruit ripe yet?” is cult talk for, “Is it time to kill said person?” My sister-in-law threatened me with the same coded threat this man threatened President Obama with.
This man, I guess it is time to give him a name, we’ll call him Prop (Propagandist), warns against the New World Order and hangs with those devoted to The Constitution Party. For those of you who don’t know, The Constitution Party is hoping to rewrite our Constitution and turn our country into a religious dictatorship. My mother and brother were in the process of being recruited into the Constitution Party when their night terrors began. Prop calls Democrats traitors. Over and over again these Illuminati conspiracy theorist, NWO, Nazi nuts are linked to this sort of propaganda. They provoke domestic terrorism. Given that they hate Democrats, this should be reason enough to be a Democrat.
I also present a couple photos of the lamb left in the fridge by and/or for She for Short, who liked to eat raw meat from the fridge as a child. I already mentioned that survivors have witnessed the ritualistic sacrifice of a lamb. The blood of a lamb would have ritual significance around Easter.
I have modified these photos by erasing names that might identify innocent or guilty, before the time is ripe, as they say.
I apologize for not getting this on my blog yesterday. Things got busy just after the train wreck, in which I was literally involved. No worries. It was nothing more than a quick stop. I’m fine.
I had been planning on getting to my blog sooner however, to share the following bit of trivia. One of the first customers to greet me in the morning said nothing, but he wore a black T-shirt that said, “I’m Gonna Shank a Bitch.” I guess he doesn’t know that it should be “going to,” it should be, “I’m Going to Shank a Bitch.” I really shouldn’t talk. I’ve been informed, more than once, that quotation marks should not be used as emphasis. Anyway, I thought I might share that they are adding another possible weapon to the mix. I suspect that these scared children are hoping they can scare me to death. I wouldn’t count on it if I were you. Stick with the playing pieces that came with the board game. I mean, what does a “scare” look like, the famous painting “The Scream”?
I have a Facebook following. I checked the personal page of one of my new followers and found a post with the title, “Obama Mocks the Resurrection of Jesus, Watch David Cameron Set Him Straight.” My follower lead into this share with the comment, “clone on right (Pres. Obama) is ripe for the picking...”
I have serious doubts as to whether this follower has read my book. On page 23 of Save Me, I’m Yours, I tell about my sister-in-law threatening me with “is the fruit ripe yet? I think it is.”
On page 284 I tell about an encounter with another survivor who asked if I had been threatened. When I said I had but not literally, she said, “Oh no, they won’t. They’ll just carry on a conversation in front of you and ask, ‘Is the fruit ripe yet?’”
It’s stunning how frequently I get confirmation that I nailed it. This cult is consistently found to provoke religious, especially Christian, fanaticism. Obama is a Christian. Doubting the details of the resurrection is the right of every American, as long as we have religious freedom. Let’s not lose it to these, not as underground as they may think, Nazis. Hitler’s Positive Christianity, was spawned straight from the Black Order of the S.S.. Don’t you forget it.
Sunday was Easter. I had the next two days off. Wednesday I opened. She for short had Wednesday and Thursday off. In the fridge was a note attached to some raw lamb meat. It was wrapped in foil with the bone protruding and sealed in a zip lock bag. The note said:
Don’t throw away the lamb bone in foil. (She for short) will come to get it.
Later that day one of her texts to me included, “Thanks lol see you. In a bit. Forgot my doggy treat.”
This really means nothing. Someone left her some raw lamb to take home for her dog. It does remind me however, that there are survivors who have witnessed the ritual sacrifice of a lamb, on Easter. Perhaps these coincidences will add up over time. Perhaps not. It would be only fair to share them on my blog in real time regardless. Otherwise I might find myself wishing I had when it all adds up later. She did tell me she likes to eat raw meat from the fridge, remember? Dexter loaned her his DVD of “The Road” and she shared with me the details of the scene where there were body parts hanging from the ceiling. She felt the people were too skinny to eat. There was not enough meat on their bones. Just thought I would share a bit of trivia with you today.